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Sunday, October 10, 2004
Wah!!! How long I've been MIA har...? I dun even noe leh... All I noe is ever since I "O R D", I've been slacking till now (waste of life to yoo peeps hor? but not for me leh... coz I m cherishing every moment of FREEDOM while I can...)
I oso recently revised thru all da emails, frenster acc, etc, etc... Everything I have not touched for so long only to find out, "Do I really need those things...?" I mean, emails & frensterz may be waes of keeping in touch wif frens but, for mee har its no more than means & waes for mee to waste me free time. Not dats its really "waste" lah... its "meaningfully" wasted... -oo-
Oso besides me close frens (can count wif my fingers...), someTRUE good frens (they bothered to contact mee) & my NEWLY APPOINTED sugar muum, I dun seem to be in contact wif anybody else. Actually come to tink of it, many of dem came into my world of existance when I TRIED to make frens wif dem... & now all puff in a heap of smoke. I wonder how much effort I have wasted only to see it come to a halt. Oh well, dis is but 1 chapter, who noes? Maybe in da next chap I get to meet dem? -oO-
My mum (not sugar muum, da REAL 1, thank yoo...) said I have grown "da zhi" liao... while measuring mee arm. I noe dat coz I've been working out since "O R D"! I juz repiied, "Coz lah... 1 pot belly in da making... wat do yoo expect?" Cannot lose to my STILL "cute" little brother wif ref to da belly area wat... -Oo-
My only main concern now is: am I goin to get mee car license by end of dis yr? Which results in mee finding work den or I fail mee license & work 1st? I prefer da 1st coz got car coming leh... Car! Car! Car! -OO-
Posted at 22:27 by BontaKun
Wednesday, June 16, 2004
NS revised system on duration of service
Muah ha ha ha
ORD loh!!! 1 more mth till countdown instead of THWEE!!!
Woo hoo!!!!!!
Suddenly... all things crashed onto me... Now I have to replan my driving classes & da MOST impt of all...... $$$
1 more week to clear leave!!! CLEAR LEAVE!!! EURO 2004!!!!!!
Posted at 14:46 by BontaKun
Tuesday, April 27, 2004
I still cannot believe I did dat! lolx! BUT I did!!! I used to be a shy, conservative wuss who have no opinions of my own when in grp, but NOW, I got rid of all dat! Woo hoo!!! In recent times, I have bcame more... aggressive? More bold (or BHB if U wanna call mee), more whackee, more "Kan De Kai" or takin things easy bah!
1 of my example can be seen in my fwenster acc. I dunno whether I can get banned for dis, but I DUN CARE! Lolx!!! Now I oso tend to relax (whereas I used to "panic" when I came upon such situations)
I tink I need to go out more often liao... to keep in touch wif all da fwens I have made thruout da years & STILL in contact. Even those whom I hate & loathe, I bo hew oso liao... so IF I see them, I wun ignore 100% loh... hahaha
I oso like to make NEW fwens too, so~~~ for those who got fwenster acc & interested to add 1 more whacky guy (ME!), heres my nick name, "Chen" (last name), "Jia Xiang" or "Bontakun" in any given sites I happen to be in... (I have no idea wat da FISH I was saying. XDDD)
May heaven dun anyhow play us leh... Lolx!
Posted at 20:08 by BontaKun
Sunday, April 18, 2004
I noe dis is very typical... when U have feelings for some1, U tink of dat person dae in, dae out. Whether U like it or not it cant be helped. But I do noe it can be diverted... I juz need dat catalyst to help me divert it till I feel betta & ok abt it.
I dunno how it started... perhaps I tot, "She juz suddenly appeared outta nowhere. Right in front of me & I was like: trapped in a spider web, unable to shrug free of da emotion of dat feeling... As wif ALL previous similar situations I've been, dis 1 is no exception. But da feeling is strong... so strong dat I cant help but tink abt her. Wat shes doin, where she is. I juz wanna see her again, tok to her again.
"Stoopid" is wat I felt coz I dunno wat she's tinkin, wat she wan. Crap I dun even noe if dis feeling is playing wif me again as in da past. Maybe its due to da reason I have never fell in love b4, or have such strong liking for a person besides my family & close frens.
Wat I m in now, I believe has happened to MANY ppl. Male, female, young & old alike... Every1 has their own wae of approaching it. I noe I have a wae to deal wif it. I juz dunno if its da best wae or not. Maybe I was not prepared. Maybe I still havent forget wat I have known in da past abt my wae of life: unpredictable, carefree, alone... Many has said, even I believed dat 'Fate is in yr hands. Its wat U choose dat matters...'
Is it bcoz 'fate is in my hands' dat I never bothered to do anything abt it when those feelings befall to me? Or subconsciously I believed in destiny? Trying to hope, pray dat somehow 'things' fall in front of me? I dunno... I dun even noe whether is 'dis' a chance I shld grab? Or its juz "You Yuan Wu Fen"? I dun wanna believe in destiny, I wanna make my own. As much as I wan, I have 1 major handicap: inexperience.
Deep in my heart I noe its not gonna solve anything juz by hanging to dat feeling & not doin anything abt it. I need to let go & juz take it as a moment of "feelings of crush". Coz I cant function normally when dat feeling still lingers in me. & I noe dat when I settle down, I can do things betta, like: be happy, feel carefree, maybe tell her how I feel without any stress or watsoever...
I tink I m gettin paranoid, how can I keep tinkin of her all da time? Maybe I m gettin tired. Or perhaps its been a long time since I last have a good cry. I dunno. I dun wanna look into watever da future has installed for me. Coz all I wan is to live in da present. Live life to the fullest.
I need to tell some1 abt it. coz writing on da blog wont help much. Though I feel betta doin so, it still cannot remove all of it. I need to tell to my buddy, my good frens. I juz need to tread carefully & dun tell da wrong person coz recently, many of them r not in a "good" mood. I tink it may be their fault they passed it to mee... Lolx!
Until then, I will find waes to handle & clear such emotions... Posted at 22:09 by BontaKun
Monday, April 12, 2004
IPPT, bladdy hiao... tot I can at least give a go... but my knee's da 1 dat go... As usual, my standing broad jumped is da weakest (besides da no needed sit & reach...)... giving a few goes is enuf for me to pull my joint muscles at da knee... den came da fateful 2.4......
Noeing I never twained for mths had my record da WORST in my histories of BAD 2.4s... den... my knee gave wae after da whole event... For da whole dae I've been limping ard in da office after IPPT... tink I gettin MC... stoopid knee... bugging mee for yrs liao... time to put an END to it...
DIE, knee... DIE~~~!!!
Posted at 18:45 by BontaKun
Friday, January 09, 2004
Friendly or flirty, naughty or nice?
Here is an article from Streats. Tuesday, 6 January 2004.
LIFE is tough.
Dress down and you are a slob. Dress up with a hint of cleavage showing and you are a slut. Keep quiet and you are a snob. Mingle freely at a party and you are a flirt. Arrgh......
These thoughts raced through my mind when a friend, Patrick, described me as "flirty". I glared at him. If looks could kill, he'd be dead.
I was insulted because I associate the word with sexual flings, which I am not into. My last attempt at a fling involved puckering my lips to kiss a poster of model Markus Schenkenberg.
I am a one-man woman, thank you very much.
After I simmered down, I realised the offensiveness of the word really depends on how you define it. There's flirting and then there's flirting.
My Longman's dictionary defines flirting as behaving towards people as if you find them sexually attractive without seriously wanting to have a relationship with them.
The lexicographer did not specifiy what these sexually-motivated behaviours are, and there lies the ambiguity.
Does telling a colleague he has a "nice tie" count? Does openly admiring the biceps of a gym buddy count? Does giggling at the hilarity of a man's pick-up line at a pub count? If so, I am a flirt.
But what's wrong with appreciating a joke and paying a compliment when it is due? I consider myself friendly, not flirty.
I like to believe that I radiate sunshine and can make someone's day without much effort. I am not going to suppress my natural exuberant just because the recipient happens to be male.
Granted, sometimes a friendly conversation with a man can escalate into repartee tinged with naughtiness. But surely we have not become so narrow-minded as to see such banter as a come-on. Come on.
Who could truely claim that they have never been extra sweet to a stranger to get quicker service or more favourable reception?
I have not reached that sublime state where I am above fluttering my lashes at a traffic policeman to try to avoid parking tickets, not that I could ever pull it off convincingly.
Flirting is harmless fun. Then again Then again, maybe not, if a study bt Britain's Social Issues Research Centre is to be believed.
Research leader Kate Fox said: "Men find it particularly difficult to interpret the more subtle cues in a woman's body language and tend to mistake friendliness for sexual interest."
"This is not because they are stupid or deluded, but they tend to see the world in more sexual terms than women."
So, how does one draw the line between friendly and flirty?
"Mind your body language," said Patrick. "Don't flash that half-smile of yours, don't lock eye contact and don't twirl your hair when you talk. See, see? You are doing it again."
And I was. Playing with my hair has become such a subconscious habit, I didn't realise I was doing it.
Perhaps I should shave my hair bald.
Or perhaps each time that I touch my hair in front of a man, I should add the disclaimer: This is not a flirtatious act, or an indication of any romantic interest in you.
Ignore the warning at your own peril.
As I said, life is tough.
By Ms Janice Wong
I dunno wat to sae abt dis... dat is until I saw another article dat relates to dis 1... "Gets away with murder because he's male" by W L Chia on thursday Streats (8/1/04)
See: wat Ms Janice Wong said does raise some interesting views as in how WE as guys view gals... BUT wat W L Chia commented in her letter somehow seems to attack on a category of guys among all guys. Meaning: aim at a particular grp. How I view it is dat, somehow it seems to drag da rest of us guys into da category & then labeled us in general, liddat, whether we r like dat or not.
NOT all guys act da wae gals perceived them to be. Me for instance, I dun sae a gal shes "flirty" coz she behave dat wae. Never tot of dat, never bothered to tink dat wae coz I was more interested in da topic than her body language & stuffs.
Indeed, Life IS tough...
Posted at 15:02 by BontaKun
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